17 March, 2003

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about business, people, war, history, recycling and being myself. All these things currently play a part in my life to some degree and when you look at the list like that it really highlights how silly life really is.

Probably due to my current reading list (Stupid White Men – Michael Moore, No Logo – Naomi Klein) I have been thinking about my business and the things I want it to accomplish and possibly, as importantly, what I don’t want it to do. Currently ZYPE is on a 1-2 month lifecycle with no life lines and no one going to bail me out if I screw it up. There’s work there, if not much, and I have products in development that may give me a chance to move ahead. Basically I’ve got no money but my dream of a sustainable company that hires a small team of great people is still strong.

I mention this to highlight the question I’ve been asking myself lately and that is: If I succeed would I know when to stop or would I simply fall back on the quest for growth and money that seems to be the goal of this society? I’d like to think I will be able to hold growth at a point that I’m happy with but it seems to be the exception to the rule to achieve that. I find that disturbing.

It’s an odd position I find myself in. Working with computers while disliking them with a vengeance, running a company with no love for business and punk in a world with few choices. It’s a very confusing time.