6 March, 2006

I’ve been looking around lately and thinking I don’t belong in this World. Nothing that seems to be considered normal makes much sense to me and I’m not sure if it’s because of me or everyone else. I guess I’m talking about western society (as a generalisation) as I have no idea what is going on in a lot of places. Specifically I’m probably just talking about New Zealand but it feels bigger. All a bit confused really. As I get tired I tend to get cynical, or more so at least, and in an effort to break that I have to ignore almost anyone who works in retail, marketing, housing, fast food, anything to do with cars, tourism and anyone who talks about the global economy or that really messed up ‘knowledge economy’ thing. None of it seems to make much sense to me and all seem to make my hackles go up. It’s easier to ignore them.

I watched the majority of my Graphics class knuckle down today and complete some really good work. They came in, sat down and started working without much prompting. It was a great moment. Nothing cuts through cynicism like watching young people do something creative and interesting. It was also reassuring when one of my Computing College students had the muppets, ‘manah manah’ on their playlist.

Ignore the tossers and listen to the muppets. That’s my advice to myself for now.